An infertile likes to torture herself.
On Infertile’s Worst Nightmare Day Mother’s Day, you checked your Facebook account, knowing full well you will be subjected to Mother’s Day photos and Mommy-related status updates.
Status Updates: “Post this on your status today if you are a proud mommy or mommy to-be!”
Infertile Status Update: “Post this on your status if you just spent Mother’s Day getting eggs surgically removed from your ovaries and then fertilized in a petri dish in hopes of becoming a mother.”
But because you like to torture yourself, you will probably wake up on Mother’s Day with a large sigh, sob uncontrollably in the shower, get into a argument with your husband/partner (because he doesn’t understand why you’re so upset), and then spend the rest of the day feeling moody. And you’ve probably ruined Mother’s Day for your own mother too. She’ll get the customary greeting card, flowers and brunch but you’ll have to excuse yourself from the restaurant table to sob on the bathroom toilet. And guess what? It is very likely that your period will show up today as well.
Later, you will check your Facebook account and view all the “Mother’s Day Photos.” You will attempt not to look at the photos but then you will. You may have even ‘hidden’ a few mommy friends along the way but, out of infertile curiosity, you will also check out their profiles to see their photos and do some snooping to see if their pregnant again. Which, of course, they are.
It WILL be your turn, maybe not today or tomorrow or next month but one day, it will be your turn. Just keep the hope.