The week before your expected period is your week of baby hope. Although we have convinced ourselves that we are not pregnant, we secretly think that we are and will not give up until the last second. We have all those fake early pregnancy symptoms and since we haven’t gotten AF just yet, we still have that glimmer of hope.
And then we see a glimpse of her pink self in our underwear.
We had completed a full toilet paper analysis and were content with the negative results. THEN, we decide to do one more innocent wipe and notice a slight trace of our period. Before complete and utter disappointment sinks in, we still have a glimmer of hope that this could be implantation bleeding. We wipe again and examine more closely. It is very light and when we wipe again, she has disappeared. We let out a sigh and our husband asks if you got your period. You say yes but secretly, you still have a tiny bit of hope that you are not sharing with your husband. Wouldn’t it wonderful if you could surprise your husband later and tell him it wasn’t your period after all? You imagine that little fantasy in your head. You want to do the wipe-and-inspect again but you will wait a few more minutes or a whole hour, if you’re patient. Good news! It’s still so light. It’s barely even arrived! You might head off to bed, feeling a little disappointment but not the full fledge, crying on the floor, hysteria that will come later.
You wake up in the middle of the night with cramps and underwear that needs to be thrown out. Full hysteria will start in the morning.